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All The Things Ill Never Say

I'm staring at the blank page, The feelings too strong to gage. My heart races, My mind paces, There is too much...
Would it matter if i told you? Would it make a difference? Would you notice what I do? Would you then see sense? There is not enough...
You know who this song is for, And I know that you'll ignore. So with this hindsight, I painfully write, All the things I'll never say.
I wish you loved like you did at the start, I wish that you still cherished my heart. I wish I could be there everyday, I wish you an

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Why?All I can do is write somebody elses words, All I can do, is write someone elses songs. But it don't change, the wasy you make me feel. No it don't change, the way I feel.
I just keep going, every single day. 'Cause I know the people I love, they want it that way. But it don't change, the wasy you make me feel. No it don't change, the way I feel.
Why? Why? Why can't I just leave this love behind? Now, Now, Now that you're no longer by my side. I, I, I just wish that I could walk away, But, But,
But I love you so I am gonna stay. &nbs Why?
by ~tuckerz

Trust In MePeople tell me what they think,
The vile lies I'm forced to drink. I'm looking through the broken glass, And realsie this is all a farce. Fuck what you say, Fuck what you do, You really think I should trust in you?
The saddest thing in all of this, The one thing that takes the piss, While I am struggling to see, I forgot to trust in me.
Everybody has hindsight, They wish they'd thought before there plight. I'm listening to everyone else, Losing my sense of self. Damned if I do, Damned if I don't. I don't understand why you wont Trust In Me
by ~tuckerz

Use Abuse Love And ChooseI'm there every moment I can be, You know you have all of me, Am I too blind to see, That you have control of me?
Is it use and abuse? Or love and choose? Either way I'm bound to lose. You keep me hidden, Like our love is forbidden. Or is it that you just wanna know?
You call when you want me, The tell me 'You bore me'. You push me away, Then beg me to stay.
Is it use and abuse? Or love and choose? Either way I'm bound to lose. You keep me hidden, Like our love is forbidden. Or is it that you just wanna know? Use Abuse Love And Choose
by ~tuckerz

Can't Stand The Image Of MeI saw myself today, I mean really looked... And I realised why I am the way I am, Why people always turn away... I can't stand the image of me.
The way I look, The way I act, The way I feel, The way I think.
I'm sitting here watching the packet of pills, That are sitting there on the widowsill. I could sleep forever, Let my body sever.
But I aint that special. I aint that lucky.
I get getting told to get a grip, People are fed up of me begnning to trip. But I only feel something other than pain, When Im stopp Can't Stand The Image Of Me
by ~tuckerz

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why cant you seeI don’t care anymore, If I live or die, Im so used to this pain, I don’t know who I am anymore…
I thought I found who I was, I looked in the mirror and a stranger stared back, As the blood poured away. All these changes in my life, For a moment… I thought I was happy…
Someone like me,
Maybe this change has set you free, (free)

I Fell apart, And cried at my reflection today, Feel like something had taken a part of me away… Looking back, I know I was wrong, I cut myself off from the wor why cant you see
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When love is all i haveWhen the ceiling weighs down with all the water drowning our hearts and the room dissapears as our faces turn dark. . I reach out in contempt to keep my chest from caving in, But the emotions release when all my safeguards are thin. . I imagine a world where the sun always rises and it never abates for a snowfall. . A presence is here In the midst of my lies lying next to me, and without her I'd die. .lw end - When love is all i have
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I dont love youYou say im the one, That im the girl on your mind, But why am I the victim, Ur of your cruel mind. You say im your baby, Then why burn this hole in my chest.
Telling me im something, That im clearly not, Creating this image, Of self hate in my mind, You just say these things, With no conscience of your lies.
Im mesmerised by your walk, The way you talk, The words you say to me, Linger in my head, Your stupid face twirls in my mind, Speaking the words I feared to hear… “Honey your nothing, I don’t love you I dont love you
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enemyI curl into this corner,
begin to fade away...
these scars wont leave my body,
so i begin to pray…
Every little word, Cuts my heart in two, I pray that you can hear my calls, And save me from tomorrow.
I beg for the beauty, That was once in my heart, I pleed that your consider, My love for once more chance.
Take me in your arms, And take me far away, You can be saviour, Instead of this sacred blade.
I pray that one day, You will see, The beauty inside of me, Because when I look into the mirror, enemy
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One step at a time...

Wed May 13, 2009, 10:14 AM

Hey,
The last week or so have been an emotional nightmare. I felt like I was back to 8 months ago... Having a breakdown all over again. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep. Crying, throwing up. I could go on, but I think you get the idea.

One massive thing triggered it. Mainly because matters of the heart always trigger a lot of things in my past. Things I need to get over. After all, the past is the past right?

I needed to let go. Put my emotions and my life into the hands of something that could really help me. I realised that I couldn't do this on my own.

Nothing has changed. The happy ending I dreamed of and almost had is still just a memory, a hope. Something that right now I cannot have. And i'm accepting that. Putting certain things into place so that I cannot fall into the same trap again. I wont let myself get that low again. So its all about avoiding the triggers. However tempting it is, however comforting.

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Listening to: First Cut is the Deepest - Sheryl Crow
Reading: Eclipse - Stephanie Meyer
Watching: Shameless
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Hey All,

Just an aspiring song writer. Would love to get my songs down with a band one day, not for fame, just as something for me and friends.

All my stuff is do to with personal experiences in my life. I hope soon I can right work positive pieces. Please comment honestly, I aint scared of criticism!

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Current Residence: Kent, UK
Interests: Surfin' the Net, clubbing, writing poems, playing the drums, song writing, playing the guitar,
Favourite movie: American Beauty/Donnie Darko
Favourite band or musician: Foo Fighters, Fall Out Boy, Evanescence, Creed, Fightstar
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Favourite artist: Povl Webb
Favourite poet or writer: C S Lewis, Steven King, Christopher Pike, J K Rowling
Favourite photographer: Paul Tuckwell
Favourite style of art: Modern/Abstract
Operating System: Windows Vista
MP3 player of choice: Ipod
Favourite game: GTA San Andreas
Favourite gaming platform: Action Adventure/Strategy
Favourite cartoon character: Woody woodpecker
Personal Quote: Cats die in toasters... use a microwave

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~infernocpf Feb 26, 2009, 3:18:06 PM

hey alex! its callum i have a DA account too...

just thought i would say hi

~tuckerz Feb 26, 2009, 3:39:15 PM

Hey! Great to see your on here too! xxx

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~doomit Feb 3, 2009, 8:50:32 PM

Thank you for favouriting Fallen! I am very happy you did.

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~Illuminous-twilight Jan 31, 2009, 6:08:35 PM

Thanks for your comment honey I love you too xxxxx be good ma dearest lover xx

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~Meredith-de-Drac Jan 31, 2009, 2:52:06 PM

Thanks for the comment and the watch!

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~Illuminous-twilight Jan 18, 2009, 9:49:51 AM

Hi angel xx Your work is amazing as i have told you a million times over.
Love you xxx

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!POLYCREATOR Mar 24, 2006, 3:30:33 PM

heey

thanks for the comment

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~ducttapefanatic May 10, 2003, 11:38:16 AM

Thanks for the devwatch :D (Big Grin)

Means a lot to me!
-Joey Black Rose

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~ducttapefanatic May 7, 2003, 11:01:13 AM

Thanks so much for the comment on my new poem -Crimson Tears Fall-
Hug

Feel better, ok?
-Joey Black Rose

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$spyed Apr 10, 2003, 2:19:50 AM

Have you ever had a dream, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?

What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire deviant life, that there's something wrong with the story. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad.

You take the blue pill, the story ends. Your browser closes and you believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in wonderland. And, I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.

I offer only the truth, nothing more.

Take: The Red Pill
Take: The Blue Pill

Fella